Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Published at Least

 After 7 or 8 years of seriously taking that step as a Visual Artist, I can say I am making an itsy-bitsy mark on the Art scene. This mean so much to me, that after all the frustrations I am still being heard and finding my voice on this jungle that I've chose to stay. 
February celebrate's Art month.... I don't feel moving further....not involving myself whatsoever on any direction to join the bandwagon of arts. I've seen enough of it.... I want a new dimension for my life...for my Art. 
I just want to paint for myself....to share isn't even a priority for now. I just want to be left alone. To move away...
And yet here's this printed mark.....my work on a magazine. That's it. It is just there...so what? I know how it felt to be cheered. I don't even care about those praises. I had been almost everywhere. I need nothing out of art..except the need to get over for the next day...just to have enough materials to paint,,,,and to be able to support my family. 

I used to have a vision for these artistry. It was clearer before.... 

I  thought I would really want to be famous but no, it is not what I actually need. I was just an artist...that's all I am. 

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Wednesday, February 15, 2017

My Angel Encounter

I'll tell you a true story of my encounter with an Angel. You heard it right, I've met a lot of them....and this time he was in human form. 
I'm going to tell this as short as I can and go directly to the encounter itself. One night my co-workers and I met a motor accident...three of us on a two wheeler motorbike, it happened so fast that we hardly knew why we glide in the air, something just hit us or we hit something lying on the road... none of us was really badly hurt except that we had wounds and scracthes because we slide on the asphalt road between 5-10 meters away from the point of impact.
I thought all of us were okay, so we resume riding but my friend has to stop because he notice something was wrong on the front wheel. 
Then I've felt there is something sticky on my face down to my mouth, I wiped it and it was blood...it was bleeding badly...my nostril was oozing with blood...it's not stoping. My shirt was drench down to my pants...I remember my nose hit the helmet of my friend, I was in the middle... I have to supress the bleeding using my shirt...
Then came a huge man, about six feet tall, wearing a jacket and a baseball cap that I can't barely see his face...my vision were blurry perhaps due to the amount of blood that was flowing on my face. This stranger asked what happened to us. 
Then he said "Ang daming dugo umaagos sa ilong mo, patingin nga?" (You have lots of blood flowing from your nose, can I see it?)
To my surprise he didn't just look at it but snapped the bridge of my nose that I can clearly hear the cartilege or bone ticking. Then he assured me that the bleeding will stop now and nothing serious because it was just dislocated. 
He explain that he was a Boxing coach and trainer and have seen lots of nose bleeding, he hurriedly left us, and advise us to be careful... 
It was about 2 or 3Am, he cross the street from were he came (by the way, this is at Olivarez complex, BiƱan) and I was not even able to thank him. No words came out of my mouth. I didn't realized instantly that he was an Angel..only upon reaching our house that I've realized he was God-sent. 
There are Human-Angels (human who act like angels) and Heavenly Angels ready to minister anyone. I've seen a lot of them in various instances, especially during those time of great need. 
is He a human-angel or just plain angel? I'm not really sure. 
Glory to GOD

This you must remember regarding how TRUE they are (if you are Christians... by the way, Muslims believe in Angels too) 

in Hebrews 13:2 we can read...
"Don't forget to show hospitality to strangers, for some who have done this have entertained angels without realizing it!"


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A subconscious peacefulness should be happening during the process of creating an artwork...that's how we must focus. I took a pause whenever that feeling of blissfulness turns into an unfathomable lonesomeness. Like a tear from an explosions of extreme happiness... sometimes it became too serene my mind wanders, jumping from one emotion into another....it is inevitable to feel LONELY when you are being one with yourself. 

I simply let the FEELING settles on my heart. I never ignore an emotion that is trying to capture my attention....to continue working would be a waste of energy and you'll only run around in circle this way. A waste of resources too. 

Take some time to reflect....even God himself rested on the 7th day after creation. 

"....and God saw that it was good."
( I'm hibernating for awhile so you haven't seen me very active lately.....but very much into my art as usual. A glimpse of my latest work-in-progress )

Saturday, February 11, 2017

Do You Still Want to be an Artist?

Are you really SURE you want to be an Artist? 

You CAN NOT be an artist if you do not know how to dance with LONELINESS....a creative process triggers our SENSITIVITY...that tranquilizer effect slows down the heartbeat so that we can listen to our brain more clearly.... a feeling of helplessness draw us closer to our inner self....searching for answers OUTSIDE THE BOX means we are entering a realm outside the NORMAL senses....it is an alien feeling... the only possible reaction any human can come up at this moment is DEPRESSION and FEAR, the mimicking of being deprive, left-out, hated, uncertainty, alone, among others are simultaneously occuring in a Creative mind... 

ARTIST BLOCK happens and must happen so that we can re-enter again that Moment of HELPLESSNESS, of being useless, of being unimportant, of being uncreative.... and by allowing these feeling to happen we can TRIGGER once again our Survival Instinct..... to be CREATIVE or else die out as a purposeless soul. 

And besides there's this REALITY of Life's challenges which includes rejection and failures that can add up to a person's frustation. Those are the things we call Spices of Life and a truly creative person can MAGNIFY these situation.

Understand the Great Power you have at your disposal...it doesn't come worry-free. It's a long lonely road....are you ready for the challenges? 

Artist's are lovers...if you can not survive The path to Loneliness.... better get another job that will constantly make you Happy. -- Fher Ymas 

“The art of effective aloneness includes the understanding that solitude is necessary for the creative gain.”-- Robert Genn 

“Most progress comes out of loneliness.”-- Bruce Barton

AND so why did God design the Artist this way, always in constant struggle to overcome Depression? 

Because the ability to CREATE can boost our self-esteem and might becomes a full-blown PRIDE!

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

Don't punish yourself trying hard to be original...
Just be yourself and always respect those above and under you.
"Commit your work unto The LORD
and your thoughts shall be established." -- Proverbs 16:3

It's good that I have better signal now....I can log on this site again. Too much politics we had in here so we can not hope for better internet experience. Well, anyway that gave me sometime to renovate my work-space....

Last Monday's session at ArtKai Gallery.... 

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Is there really art in nudity? Everything is all in the mindset...for me I have overcome these peril on my eyes.... all was purity in the art. I don't know about the others. 

The heavens declare the glory of God;
And the firmament shows His handiwork. -- Psalm 19:1

Saturday, February 4, 2017

Not a 24/7 Artist

Image may contain: shoes I no longer had a  little boy but a young man in Elijah and I must admit that reality that he will soon be on his own... can not push my choices on him. He is right now on his stage of new exploration...wandering and trying crazy stuff....hormonal changes.... 
God, time move so fast....my little girl Elyona too is starting to act an adult....but still very much boyish and more incline to masculine things. But I know she's not a tomboy... she just have this rebel type of personality. 

I'm not an Artist most of the time.... I spend most of my time managing the house since Bella's the one who had a regular job. Although I've often neglect these house chores or at least gave mandate to my kids to do them.... they just don't obey very easily but still I can say they are pretty much normal and not real threat to mankind.  I'm trying to balance their experience of youth...they are learning the art quite well unlike me who stayed indoor most of the time when I was young. Both of my kids are sporty which I terribly failed.... and being streetwise was something that I have not mastered.... creating contacts this way was perhaps vital....not pushing them too much on getting high grades...just enough education.... at least a little security for whatever may come.  The school system is rigged by the way so i don't want them to be swallowed too deep on the hole. 

I myself was bellow average...and disinterested on acquiring medals and trophy...I just have enough Mathematics and Sciences to bring me for the next day....and besides most of the real educations that I have came from my own initiative to know. I guess this self-taught attitude ways had helped me a lot to discover Realities... and who are commanding worldly consciousness.
I am not in anyway trying to be a father to Zander, he came already formed....but thank God he function outside the fences.

Elyona was harder to tame...she is more of me....free spirited and individualistic....the true artist among the three. She can invent things and know how to get what she want. 

God, always guide them. 

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Trying to ALTER or RE-DESIGN your partner's mindset or lifestyle is not the purpose of a creative process mistakenly labelled as jealousy..... Lovers had often misunderstood JEALOUSY as a negative feeling but actually it is a creative PROCESS so that we can think of a MORE ARTISTIC way to love our partner or else somebody MORE Loveable might come her or his way.... Jealousy is there Not to CONTROL another person but to trigger our imagination to truly LOVE. 

Loving and Caring is an Art.... and Jealousy reminds us to be more Creative.