Throwback-Spring Cleaning in Mid-July

 Some of my blogs are still generating traffic.... does blogger still pays adsense? Anyway that was an earlier nude work where my brush strokes are still quite hard... 
   And continuing my nostalgic trip.... I re-arrange and gather my old files of artworks and most of them were what I've consider ungallery worth pieces, they were meant to be hidden...for my own self-evaluation... and for my kids as well. Hoping they would cherish them somehow when I'm gone. 

 

   There was rejection...regrets...and withering passion. There used to be a dreamer and now he tries again... Finally you are seeing these....very few have actually seen the inside of my art journals. 

© Fher 

Days of Wanderings

A work in progress.... 

Turning nostalgic once again....looking back and archiving my early works. I miss my early works and wonder where are they now? It's uncertain really that anyone from my colleague in PNC had actually kept them. What I had are bits and pieces I've incorporated and pasted on my Visual Manuscripts.... I had not really taken good care of those works which somehow some are gone due to travels.   

    Here are some of my self-searching works after I had my scholarship at Cultural Center of the Philippines in 1985... these are collages of those early experimentations.

   Thanks to Dra. L. C. Gloria, Madam Imelda Marcos, National Artist Lukrecia Kasilag, my mentors Arnel Agawin, Rodel Peña, R De Leon, Rey Albano...

 

Emily Loren 1985 grin emoticon
My very first figure painting in watercolor 

"After Shower"
1993 Watercolor

   I was far more serious artist before... not until I was sucked in to workers life. The daily realities have eaten my idealism. The drastic call was a blessing in disguised after all. 

© Fher 

Physical Memories Revisited...

    

   During my CCP days I was told that you have to capture the soul of the person in the portrait.... some says I often do, even the great Maestro Bueno Silva told me so that I've captured them...perhaps from time to time.

   ....it's been a long time since I did a nude painting...and as I've often said, I do nude to gauge my skill. To redefine or fine-tuning my skill...

   ...and more fine tuning ahead... 

   If you think, the brain is the only part of our body that can remember then all we have to do is read book about arts, then we can go directly and proceed painting. But that's not the case, often taken for granted was our muscles capabilities to retain or memorize activities.

    Observation needs practice too. At first glance we might miss the different grains and tones but constant looking will lead us to various shades and hues (plus eye strain too). Learn or discover to see things as they really are and not what you think they are.

    Matters are a combination of substances. If we look deeper into the material composition of things it would be easier to translate them into reality....

    Two things must take place; the substance of your model and the properties of your medium. See how the pigment behaves; like to what extant it will move or the limitations it displays. In every action there's an equal reaction and that every color has an individual characteristic -- 

   Don't be afraid to experiment, and even if you don't get what you expect you'll still be discovering something...our muscle (pulse) will still develop because constant activities forms a habit. Teaching our hand to paint...will SURELY gain what it has invested.

Twist on Impressions....

Then here I've finally realized that I'll get more attention as an impressionist....and the reality that there's too many technically better artist than me. On the field of Impressionism especially portraiture, there aren't too many artist able....

Doing these discipline requires understanding first of realism then lots of experiences with color harmony... something that I've used to ignore, although I love to look at Van Gogh-ish work but not on my personal insignia. I always wanted to focus on details...even very tiny details.... yet, now that my eyes and hand can't handle it anymore, I have to give in.... but then again, I will still be doing my symbolic Realizationism these way....as long as I can. 

A place I love to visit when I'm in Pasay City.... 

Elyona's FB was hacked...change the name into Christina Espeleta....she felt really sad and I was furious because of the rare memorable photos kept in them. 

The Day

So let's see what we are going to discuss today... as you can see with my latest pieces, I'm reuniting myself with impressionism... after trying all my best to achieve a certain degree of Realism....and Found out I don't have that clarity of vision to do such things and my pulse isn't that steady anymore. 

Those dizziness strikes are becoming frequent, most especially when I bend my head down... and what I fear most of the times is when I'm outside. 

I'm a year older again.... I really have so much to be thankful for.... these freedom to do what I love the most. Thank you for my very understanding wife. My artistry seems to be doing well anyway.... the face-painting on events most especially which keep the chores rolling. 

I request more good health...Now I have to pray for that....something that I've never worry much before. 

Rainy days again...typhoon actually which starts in F.... have been away from the current event these past days, so even the name of this storm or its whereabout I have no real idea. I think I will be enjoying more of this palette knife techniques. I saw one good set of palette knives at Glorietta...

....changing my mind... yet the essences are still there... 

something to divert my attention...can't work yet....a pretty face can always bring back the enthusiasm....

This commission that had been long overdue.... 

As long as GOD is with me, in Christ Jesus name sake, I know there is nothing to be afraid of.... none. 

And she's still there....

God bless everything that my hand will touch.
AMEN! 

My Month

   It took me years to understand painting Realism and even attempted few Hyper-realism just to come up with the right blend for Impressionism.... I guess I'm rediscovering a new route for my artistry. I guess you will be seeing more of these (see above pix) approach. And it's coming to me very naturally, I guess I've spent so much time trying to create a realistic portrait when all along this was really my forte. 

Going 48.... 

Today (July 4) I bought a new Smartbro broadband....from those peddler on the sidewalk for only Php 100 ☺ and it seems to be working fine.   

I am at the moment....

 This after noon all of a sudden childhood mem'ries came with a longing emotion jolting in-between. How I wish we could return to them.... as if yesterday was these very moment. Where are my playmates? My crushes? The old street... the old music... the old games.... the old.... 

   I'm going to be a year older this month.   Nothing fancy was on my head.... I want it very simple, I'm not going to talk about it. I want privacy and stay aloof.... on that day. I was thinking of reflecting... where am I right now? 

   I just want to return to my childhood...despite some heartache back then; but everything was so simple long ago. Nothing grand.... just being there at the moment. 

    Here's a caricature piece by Sir Armar...The 4S Elite.... now who would have imagine I've be part of this team? I'm just a nobody when I've join 4S....merely admiring the works of great portraitist. 

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♫ I never knew what brought me here, as if somebody lead my hand... it seems so hard to understand my course was planned.... ♪ ♪

.... against all odds I left the corporate world more or less six years ago.... I decided to paint again.... The struggle of virtually unknown artist.... and on these series of images I will left on your wall... I hope you don't mind.... if I may ask a favor once again "Please don't stop remembering..." -- Kuya Fher

isang Sentimental statement lang para maalala ko na, noon may isang tindero ng empanada na ngayon nagpapanggap nang Artist. 

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The Fher Ymas Collections 

God Bless.

Here are my work in progress....

I am at the moment....