LAST 10 minutes of your Life is

 

Whether you believe in God or not, All the things that will ENTER your mind during the LAST 10 minutes of your Life is the True meaning of Life. 

"Is there Life after death?"

"Have I given enough Love to everyone, especially my family?"

"Am I going to heaven?"

Because All of us, I believe will have DOUBT about the Life we HAD lived during those Last moment. Everything will be about the REAL things we CARE about....our SELF and those we LOVE.

Everything will be about Loving yourself and others....(even if you don't believe in God) because during that last 10 minutes you aren't even sure you will be Resurrected. 

Pause and Think on those for a moment.

That is exactly the Meaning of the 11th Commandment of Christ, . that WE SHOULD LOVE ONE ANOTHER AS HE HAS LOVE US. It was the most PERFECT DEPARTURE order from Jesus Himself before He was crucified. 

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There will be NO room for your mind to think about Success and Failures.You will not think about your Religion or non-religion.You will Never Think about "How successful you are", "How many Goals have you reach"... Those Last Moment will be about Loving Others....in fact, God's judgment will not even require you to believe in Him during that final moment....

All He will ask (condemnation that will occur during death)...The one question is "How was your RELATIONSHIP with others?" 

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By the way, those were the questioned that I have in mind during my Near-Death Experiences.....Glory to God.

I can not just Fade into Nothing

 Fher Mission Ymas

I will continue....for what? Strange isn't it that I was somehow popular among artisan but virtually unknown in the art scene? It was probably my ranting and real talk....beside being truly talented. Without malice I can truly say that I am a raw talent....that has evolve in a very short span of time. 

   Filled with so many expectations....enormous amount of faith without a single drop of doubt but then I'm still a failure. 

   Today I've felt really consumed...all the vices that had crept in my systems are paying off....and slowly I can feel my decay....the pain and symptoms are becoming more intensified. 

   As much as I am developing to a true Sensei which upgraded in terms of visual impact, I can not create with ease anymore....since I'm already experiencing various signs of mismanaged aging. 

   Not now because it is too soon  to leave my children....I can not leave them without the assurance that they will survive. 

   The end of the World is already here...the process is already functioning.... 

   Elijah want to pursue College.....and I feel incompetent, coward, irresponsible, and selfish for not being able to provide very swiftly....again, if only those bad luck didn't come so very often as it should....as if heaven has shut its door for me. "You can not be too happy in this life"

   Zander by the way, told me that he is now working as construction worker. 

Even small tourney were obviously I've done better piece and yet it was beaten by lesser rendition. Now you know you can not be a rebel....

   I can not connect my thought...I'm dizzy and tired and yet must reserve my energy for another event tomorrow in Lipa City.

   God give me strength and enlightenment...always need your support. Send me league of Angels to minister to me. 

   I must continue the mission... as I was thinking now of removing that Mission on my middle name. 

Zander, my son's artwork 

Just Trying....

A popular nobody in an ocean of pageantry and vanities. I've been knocking...trying so very hard I can't finish the fight. I feel so low.... 

When in Baguio

I have to spend this much needed relaxation to refocus my visions about life....seems I'm draining my enthusiasm....so despite the expected budget which didn't materialized I still pursue this trip to Baguio City  even though I have to stretch my wallet....

The trip was worth it. I was able to see a different angle into where I am right now as an artist. The acceptance was far more important...that I am still virtually trying...struggling....known by some....respected perhaps....and seeing vanities. 

The wasted years...and those things that I didn't tried...

It was all waiting...to enjoy the moment perhaps....and back to acceptance....

I saw that I have to re-invent myself...my style...and perhaps even my values....

Everything is possible....even failure. 
But I have a dream....or a purpose....an ordination. Since birth I had been weave for these. Am I just concocting my prophetic status....Ah No, I've come to the point of wisdom where I no longer need anything materials as top priority. 

So what about this Baguio exhibit at Forest Lodge which will last until January next year....the longest exhibition of my work in a classy hotel will  determine if I am really worth acquiring.... my works can't easily be classified. 

And here are those first presentations...studded with controversy....and why lady luck isn't my best friend...I actually didn't stare long enough....it was hang at unit A of Fred's Service Apartment in Baguio now which was formerly stocked in Fred's Cabanatuan..... 

  

I'll be uploading more pictures here....