A Real Delight of An Artist

w.i.p. Eula

Been into so many things these past days....trying to improve my craft. It just hit me that I wasn't really taking these business seriously, taking for granted the Likes and the almost near performance art approach on my gallery. Getting old without really making a remarkable mark.

   This playfulness and randomness distort my skillful rendition. As I look how my contemporaries carefully treat their stages as an artisan with finesse, I've just saw myself a bit mediocre. Leveling even to the younger generation whose artistry are already going somewhere while I carelessly walk without aim. 
   I focus on multiple things....trying to achieve so many things at once. I produce more item this way but not extra ordinary as I did before during my younger years. As I turn to look at my collections, I really don't have something to showcase. 

   Once more I started another visual manuscript....Yes another one, almost an addiction despite the budget I have to allocate for these....sometimes it feels that what I earn on my art also goes to my art. Buying art materials on impulse whenever I had the money even if I have so many extras at home and even if I wont be needing them at once. 

   I'm into oil nowadays....since I have not fully explore it and the fact that it is more easy to maneuver. That portrait of Eula (fig.1) I should say will truly measure my skill because I've truly taken it seriously as a masterpiece....an obra which made me understand that if I really concentrate I can produce fine quality art. Thus, it has capture attention already 'coz I have two commissions now....

   The urge to finish a piece at once sometimes becomes wasteful....not minding the expensive stuff....I sometimes experiment and goes into nothing. 

Christian Development Center, Tagaytay City

Villamor Airbase, Pasay City

   By the way, my new Art journal is label as "Laboratory of Random Code" which was perhaps the 16th Visual Manuscripts that I attempt to make again....will it be finish? 

   Now what's a real Artist's delight? To be able to do what I love doing....to fully express what is in my heart without too much thinking of the material gain. Well anyway, a monetary bonus would be very much welcome. 

© Fher

In Fragment Again....

Getting use with the pain.... but then at times you realized you are cornered in to a place and time where your life is useless and a mess. Those little choices you've made in the past are now building up and awakening into a monster. 

Bad luck sometimes comes in pair and even in troops....and if this misfortune had been there for the longest time it is no longer bad luck but sort of a curse. 

There are choices and even dreams we had that aren't really meant for us but we blindly listen to our hearts than reality.

This passion of mine had been very consuming and most of the time wasteful...though I wish not to call it a waste...maybe for now.... I can not construct my thought for now properly for the pain that still fresh.... my mind in fragment....incoherent and unreal....I'm decaying.... 

So my therapy continue.... 

I will survive. This one will pass away too. 

Elijah's drawing....quite good...never see him draw a lot.